Will I crumble before I conquer?

I spent over five years "perfecting life", or so I thought... I grew up as fast as possible. I thought this was the answer. I dove headfirst into severely austere eating habits; raw, vegan, organic, wild. All early experimentation (drug/alcohol use) diminished completely. I found myself in a relationship that reflected this perfectionism and imitated the maturity I was unconsciously seeking. It was all about being responsible, capable and “doing the right thing", for myself, for my loved ones and with a drive to make a big difference in the world. My childhood hugely lacked structure. Clearly I was seeking to fill those holes. Little did I know, this attempt for perfectionism would inevitable crumble. I started to wake up in 2011. By 2012, I could not continue living this life that, I was so sure was exactly what I was supposed to be doing. I couldn’t bare another day of it. I found myself miserable by every small detail of my daily life. On a whim, I followed my intuition and applied to go back to school…. From that moment forward, the universe, God, my true Self started to surface. In less than a years time, I was a certified yoga teacher, teaching this profound practice on this magical little island, my home. I never planned this life. I never imagined it was to be my destiny at this point in time. This experience, this transformation for me, will always represent this idea, to let go of what you thought, and let the world unfold around you, exactly as it should be. 

#transformation #selfdiscovery #theplanmightnotbeyourplan #letgo #perfectionism#release #gowiththeflow 

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